User blog comment:Spongebobfan123/ALONE AT SEA!!/@comment-26710532-20160730014321/@comment-27304481-20160730214739

Well she also said she loved taking out her rage and her feelings of confinement out on her. It's an awkward situation, Lapis in a way felt that release of emotion as a good thing while the nature of how that happenned negatively. So ultimately the latter was more influential than the former, but nonetheless, both were present. At least a little